Finally It’s OVER

So, this is my final entry for the school year. Am I going to continue this blog? Yes, yes I am. (Laughs) I shall share with you via document how my 9th grade year went. It’s not how I imagined it to be because the school I go to is a bit, in a nice way,  atrocious.

See in the movies, they don’t make high school seem so ghetto. Majority of the kids at the high school I’m in are good kids, but the rest of them, well they need Jesus. The proms and homecomings are so pretty and just reasonably atrocious. It’s just that the things these children do, don’t make any sense. Why do they think it’s okay to do GROWN-UP THINGS  in a classroom? Sometimes I pray and worry for these children.

For me, I would say that I somewhat enjoyed myself this year. I was able to get rid of toxic people, {INDIA FREEMAN & TAMYA BELL THIS IS FOR YOU} I did things I didn’t usually see myself doing a lot. I also got rid of my shyness and was able to communicate aloud a lot. I want to attend a high school that does not limit it’s electives to upperclassmen, and be able to speak to more people that aren’t in my grade. I just hope next year is different and does not include any of the atrocities that happened this school year. THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK, UM BYE.

I Realized How Messed Up I Actually Am

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Hey, blog. I have less than two weeks left of school, so WHOOP WHOOP. On to the other point, I feel terrible. As in “terrible” I mean I feel like my anxiety has passed its breaking point. I, most recently, had a panic attack in class today, so I sat in my seat with my head in my arms and cried.

I have made my mom aware of these panic attacks since she also had them one point in her life. I never really went through anything like this before. I literally think I just heard gunshots outside so I turned off my light, now it’s dark. I been getting anxious a lot more lately and I am really worried. For example right now typing about this I want to curl up in a ball and cry. Another gunshot I think, another, what the fuc-.

This memorial day weekend, I went shopping. I mean, birthday money shopping, but still shopping. I am really happy my birthday landed on memorial weekend because Converse had a sell on their shoes, and I got McDonald’s. I didn’t really do anything special I was supposed to go to a cookout but I don’t know what happened. Bye POOHBEARS see you next time!

Happy Birthday To Me

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So, my birthday was yesterday. We are 14 no more. I am finally and for like 10 months a 15 year old, that’s crazy. But, aside from that I had the urges to fight a b*tch. The reason-being is because she sent me some dumb-stuff. BTW, this friend #2 from that situation I had the week before last week.

It all started on a altered schedule school day. She literally decided it was OK to ruin my day at 12:37 pm on Wednesday, May 22, 2019, saying, AND I QUOTE. “ive been hearing some things and all i gotta say is just keep my name out your mouth. i haven’t been talking about you at all and i’ve been keeping my distance periodt.” SIS. Your name is generic. I don’t care. What else? OH, Why the FRICK did you think it was OK?

All I got to say is if you’ve been keeping your distance why would text? Back onto my birthday. I spent it at a hibachi grill, and I still got leftovers so WHOOP WHOOP. It was so much fun and I invited one of my other friends that I actually like, and she got to meet my family, and guess what, MY FAMILY LIKED HER. I just want to thank the peeps at school and on social media that wished me a happy birthday, you guys are lit. AND BYE UNTIL NEXT TIME MY DUDES.

All Things Must Come To An End

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So, what poppin’ blog. I sitting writing this for the second time (in a different way) still drinking tea and now I am listening to music. So, this week has been terrible in ways which I find to be a coincidence. I lost- I think- two friends which I have been friends with for 2 years, pulled a muscle in my arm (it has gotten worst), and managed to get sick and I still have a stuffy nose. I am very agitated and I also want to cry because of this week.

I lost my connection with friends because of the fact that I confronted them of their wrongs and now they want to accuse me of being wrong, which I find absolutely OUTRAGEOUS! This all started with the fact that I started off the week telling them my arm hurts, like when I flex it there’s a pain, THEN FRIEND wait #1 says, “well maybe you should just stop flexing it” when I tell you I almost smacked the poor life out of that girl when she said that. I literally almost did. I also got pushed very violently by friend #2 on the same day of telling them. I have many problems with them and the way they like to talk about me or steal things from me, it very much gets on my nerves but I try not to say it because you know I am like that girl in an abusive relationship with some dude but, then says “Oh he loves me and he’ll change” but they don’t.

But back to me, there was also a situation over summer 2018. It was fathers day, and I texted in our group chat that I’m sad because it hit me that my dad is not here no more so I don’t have a father to acknowledge on fathers day. My dad died March 2018, and I still remember the day my mom told me. Friend #1 says, well my father isn’t here either but I don’t have that problem. There is a complete difference between your father disappearing out of your life compared to my father being literal ashes and dust. I continuously forgive them but I don’t seem to let them go. I really need to learn to let go of the toxicness and try to find the bit of positivity there in the world because having friends like them is not going to take me anywhere in life. PERIODT POOH

Introducing The Writer

Hi, my name is Alana Ransome. I am a high school freshmen soon to be sophomore. Introducing myself is going to be the most boring thing there is because there’s nothing really special about me. I know people may say there has to be something special, but there isn’t. I’ll just get to the basics.

I am a full blown GEMINI. Yes, I actually acknowledge that I have multiple personalities. I would say that I’m a introvert in most situations but an extrovert when the times comes. I am the oldest on my mom’s side, with only a little brother, but the youngest on my demad

All Things Must Come To An End

and i- oop

So, what poppin’ blog. I sitting writing this for the second time (in a different way) still drinking tea and now I am listening to music. So, this week has been terrible in ways which I find to be a coincidence. I lost- I think- two friends which I have been friends with for 2 years, pulled a muscle in my arm (it has gotten worst), and managed to get sick and I still have a stuffy nose. I am very agitated and I also want to cry because of this week.

I lost my connection with friends because of the fact that I confronted them of their wrongs and now they want to accuse me of being wrong, which I find absolutely OUTRAGEOUS! This all started with the fact that I started off the week telling them my arm hurts, like when I flex it there’s a pain, THEN FRIEND wait #1 says, “well maybe you should just stop flexing it” when I tell you I almost smacked the poor life out of that girl when she said that. I literally almost did. I also got pushed very violently by friend #2 on the same day of telling them. I have many problems with them and the way they like to talk about me or steal things from me, it very much gets on my nerves but I try not to say it because you know I am like that girl in an abusive relationship with some dude but, then says “Oh he loves me and he’ll change” but they don’t.

But back to me, there was also a situation over summer 2018. It was fathers day, and I texted in our group chat that I’m sad because it hit me that my dad is not here no more so I don’t have a father to acknowledge on fathers day. My dad died March 2018, and I still remember the day my mom told me. Friend #1 says, well my father isn’t here either but I don’t have that problem. There is a complete difference between your father disappearing out of your life compared to my father being literal ashes and dust. I continuously forgive them but I don’t seem to let them go. I really need to learn to let go of the toxicness and try to find the bit of positivity there in the world because having friends like them is not going to take me anywhere in life. PERIODT POOH

Introducing The Writer

Hi, my name is Alana Ransome. I don’t have anything special to share about me. Usually people do have something that makes them different, but I don’t. I mean the special thing about me probably would be that I am among the three tallest women in my family, where the males are mostly dominant in that area. Except for that, it seems to be nothing else.

I am a GEMINI, and proud. I fully acknowledge that I do have multiple personalities, it can be both a dangerous, but good thing. I was born May 24th, 2004 (mark your calendars!), at 6:05 pm, which makes my moon sign Leo. I am a introvert mostly, but an extrovert when I need to be. I have slight anger issues, but not like “I will throw a chair at you if you don’t shut up” anger issues more like “I need to go somewhere quiet before I start crying angry tears” anger issues. I am the oldest on my mom’s side with one little brother, but on my dad’s side I am the youngest of 4.

I have 4 true closest friends, that all go to the same school as me. I am a K-POP stan, meaning I stan about 10 groups, and know all their names, which is like 100 something names. I own three K-POP albums and I have been to 0 concerts. Other than K-POP, I AM A FOREVER MARVEL STAN. Like, I haven’t seen Endgame but I plan on seeing it this weekend I tell you and I am ready to sit in a theater for 3 hours and cry my eyes out. That is truly all I can tell you about me. Stay tune to the next entry my dudes, PEACE!